04/10/2014

Dear God,

I understand now why people wish to share you with others. To have others feel what you feel. The sense of peace, comfort, and joy. Someone close to me I see in certain times a struggle, a lack of joy. I don't mean one must forever be joyful but during difficult times it is nice to know you have someone there for you, who loves and cares for you well being. Yet I do not know how to help them as they have known me for most of my life and my recent transformation in God may seem odd or even "fake" to them because literally a few weeks before I was in the same place they are in. Which leads me to another conclusion that like the past me who was stubborn and didn't listen, it will take Gods divine grace to move that which I can't. So here I pray that the same work God made in me He would make in them. Although I pray that I may be able to help them avoid the same "experience" I had to get there.

Back-story time, I had become someone who was self-righteous, self-reliant, and prideful and it took a Greek tragedy fall multiple times before I realized that I was doing something wrong. That I needed to humble myself, to place my cares upon Him. Not just in times of need but in prosperity. I needed him to guide me and work in me that I may become a servant, humbled by Him. Yet this was one of the hardest lessons I had to learn. For someone who feels they can conquer the world if they only try hard enough, that they need to submit themselves to another is a hard pill to swallow. I pray that through my own testimony/experience I can help her on her journey.

From,
Your Humbled Servant