04/14/2014 (Part Two)

Dear God,

So I have been thinking more about blessings. I realize how truly and utterly ungrateful I am. As the Lord continues to bless me I feel so, undeserving. Before when I prayed, (which was once every blue moon, normally in times of trouble) I would thank God for waking me up, putting food on the table and clothes on my back, etc. Yet that is all I did, was say those things. I don't think I ever realized the meaning behind those words. I have no idea what it means to be hungry. Yet I waste food and complain when a waiter "takes to long" or when there is no "snack food" and I actually have to cook something. I've never been denied education or persecuted in pursuit of it. Yet I complain about too much homework or professors I dislike. I complain about money yet all my needs and then some have been provided for me. I've never been without a place to sleep. I have both my parents. I have traveled across the country and outside of it as well. I am in good health, the worst I ever had was some minor food poisoning, yet I complain when I have a cold. I've never broken any major bones. I have full functionality of all my five senses. I was born in a religious household with a mother who cared for and about my salvation. Yet I have taken these things and many more as "expected". Meaning I expected these things from my life as if they were my right and not my privilege.

I have so much to be thankful for, so much bestowed upon someone so unworthy. I have squandered MANY blessings due to such thinking. Just thinking of all the wasted blessings makes me shudder as the Lord continues to bless me. I feel like God has given me *talent after talent after talent and I keep burying them over and over and over again. As I continue this journey I am learning to be faithful in the little things. How can I expect God to bless me with more when I squander and take for grant it the little I have? May the Lord continue to work in me and mold me into his humble servant.

From,
Your Humbled Servant

*talent = For those unfamiliar with the reference of the Parable of the Talents read here: Matthew 25:14-30